trash

dont listen to that trash. maybe he is one of those instructors who is really negative and most critical of those he thinks have the most potential. if in the end of the day, it makes you work harder, i am sure you will come away better, even if by seeing that you can handle a righteous, nasty old professor. i hope you know that you're more than that. and plus, if it makes you feel better, i think i spent the greater part of thursday crying, due to trauma and other variables, so a good cry is oftentimes the best way to let it out, get over the hump, and then turn psycho-focused until you do what you need to do, to make yourself feel better. you will feel so much better once this is all over. AND - you could always request a private appointment to set your feelings straight if you feel he is being overly non-sensitive. i mean, thats what they are paid for - office hours.

i still remember a professor i had for creative writing workshop in college. i thought his writing sucked, and he had this horrible, lilting colonial accent from south africa, that everytime i heard it i thought "racist!". is that bad? i mean, i hated him. and, he could never actually give good or valuable feedback, yet would spend hours talking about someone else's crap to make them feel better. i never got it. well, i sure showed him, you know, by being published. (what? oh right. not really).

i have a ton of stories to tell you but i am pooped and its way too late, i couldnt stop myself from watching weeds on dvd, that show is quite entertaining. plus, i am always startled by how hot mary louise parker is. really!

well, i hope by the time you read this miss park you feel better. hang in there. we are all sending our good vibes your way.

xo